I learnt quite a bit during my interview just now. Apparently I don't sell myself enough. I am not confident is claiming how big and important my research is. I guess they're right. Somehow I see this as a gender problem. Or maybe it is just my self-esteem. I should read my confidence building booklet again and remind myself the things I have done and should be proud of.
One thing for sure, I am proud of myself for knowing what I want and have the courage to break up with him. I have always thought of myself as someone who would take the low road and 'settle' at 'closing time'. Meaning when in a bar and it is almost closing time, I would just grab the last man standing just so that I would not be alone that night. But I'm glad that I am not that person, I still have enough courage and determination to stick to what I believed in. Insyallah. By the way, that 'closing time' term I got from watching too much Desperate Housewives.
Well, in all that fuss about me and my lack of confidence to state the obvious, my supervisor was expressing how he was worried that I am not taking care of myself and how I am a workaholic (he got the impression from the number of journals and books that I have read - which may be true but not so much accurate). I assured him that I do have fun times. And I told him about my Saturday watching Football matches - KUSMA's Piala Perantau. Yes, hot boys. Well I can't really say men since most of the players were still boys. Still it was great!!! I enjoyed myself tremendously. I would attached some pictures of me and the players as soon as the photographer uploads the photos on Facebook.
And for some reason today, I have been deliriously happy and have been checking out guys all the way from home to work and back. Well, I'm still happy. Tomorrow I'm going to check out guys in the library. Wish me luck people.
BTW, I miss my BFF Zul.
One thing for sure, I am proud of myself for knowing what I want and have the courage to break up with him. I have always thought of myself as someone who would take the low road and 'settle' at 'closing time'. Meaning when in a bar and it is almost closing time, I would just grab the last man standing just so that I would not be alone that night. But I'm glad that I am not that person, I still have enough courage and determination to stick to what I believed in. Insyallah. By the way, that 'closing time' term I got from watching too much Desperate Housewives.
Well, in all that fuss about me and my lack of confidence to state the obvious, my supervisor was expressing how he was worried that I am not taking care of myself and how I am a workaholic (he got the impression from the number of journals and books that I have read - which may be true but not so much accurate). I assured him that I do have fun times. And I told him about my Saturday watching Football matches - KUSMA's Piala Perantau. Yes, hot boys. Well I can't really say men since most of the players were still boys. Still it was great!!! I enjoyed myself tremendously. I would attached some pictures of me and the players as soon as the photographer uploads the photos on Facebook.
And for some reason today, I have been deliriously happy and have been checking out guys all the way from home to work and back. Well, I'm still happy. Tomorrow I'm going to check out guys in the library. Wish me luck people.
BTW, I miss my BFF Zul.
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