Dear E

Well, I guess what me and my friends (well especially my friends) were thinking/betting on was right. You don't get it. You don't understand what I meant when I say "I'M DONE". Maybe I should have said "We're done". Maybe you would get it. But the only reason I said "I'M DONE" is because for two hundred days I have been the one working on it. Well you did put some 'effort' (oh so loosely) into it. But still the overall performance bonus should be mine definitely (I would probably only give you about 10% of it).

What do I mean when I say "I'M DONE". Well I'm done

• Trying
• Spending TIME on it
• Spending MONEY on it
• Wasting my EMOTIONS and feelings on things I get no reward for

Even cars need maintenance, where's mine!!! Not that I want to be a car, but the fact that you think and treat me like an object (well more like a static object) that won't move anywhere, and would forever stay here FOR YOU when you NEED me (but you would be nowhere to be found when I NEED YOU); that is so MESSED UP.

You're self-absorb-ness and self-centred-ness are so going to pull you down even further. Stop making yourself out as the victim. "Kalau nak seribu daya, Kalau tak nak seribu dalih" Stop with all the excuses. You can keep telling yourself that (hopefully you can convince yourself to be happy with your excuses), I don't really care for that, never have never will.

Time and again, I have said how HONESTY IS IMPORTANT, I guess it is not for you. I'm sure if you read this you'd think you're so grand in my life that I would dedicate an entry for you. But guess again, it is simply to point out how clueless you are. I actually gave you some things to read to help you through this, but you chose to ignore them. So honey, it is totally your lost. Next time (hopefully not for me), TRY HARDER so that you won't get yourself in this mess again.

More fish out there. And I definitely got to fry other fish now.

So, since you are incapable of understanding what I meant when I said "I'M DONE" let me rephrase it, "GOOD BYE".

And I would dedicate this song for you, you should read it carefully and try to understand it (I know it can be hard).

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy