Saturday, 18 July 2009

We should always welcome change

It is a wonderful day. It began with something I am ever so grateful for. I am so excited about going home. Busy packing my stuff and hanging out with housemates. My room is so going to be empty, I think people who knew me know that I have so many stuff. Wherever I am my room will be full. This time is no exception.

Well, off to have dinner with the girls. Drinks by the park, buffet dinner, then movie then more drinks at Hard Rock Cafe. Great day indeed. And yeah, I'm going to have makan-makan tomorrow. Nasi Dagang and more stuff. Housemates are going to help. It should be great.

Thursday, 16 July 2009

Stupid Facts

  • Syura: Your short hair look like Snow White's
    Ayu: Yeah, but I am not while like snow
  • I am seriously rethinking the idea of going back to my darker skin colour - I wish Malaysia is made of ice that can't be melted (if only that statement makes any logical sense)
  • I love Harry Potter - so much
  • I have been crying so much this month
  • I have too many books. I should stop buying them and start reading the ones I have not read
  • I bought Scene It Friends and Harry Potter. Am so playing tomorrow.
  • Yes, people in Malaysia you should give me a list of things you want me to download so that when I get back to KL, I can give you or we can watch together
  • Seriously need to start packing tomorrow
  • Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince was great. I think Hermoine would be smarter and know more stuff if wizards and witches actually uses the internet.
  • Oh yeah, I minat this comel boy. But at the same time I want someone else. *Me- confuse and playful mode*




Monday, 6 July 2009

Did you happen to read the Star Probe section yesterday?

I am so disgusted. It is much worst than One Flew over the Cuckoo's Nest. What a disgrace, when the government just got the PWD Act to be proud off. Seriously I thought it could be something out of Hollywood films, definitely not in Malaysia. Oh yeah and then you should also read all the politically correct reply from the 'responsible people' behind all this.
Tell me how much more money do you want to spend on these 'frequent checks'? I'm so sure that would be the topic of the next discussion. Aren't all the standard of practise enough to trust these establishments to provide proper and most appropriate care for these disabled people? I guess those trusted with the job in the first place are not to be trusted. I seriously do not know how they sleep at night?

I seriously need more time to digest and seriously put all my arguments and frustration into this. Will update soon.

Totally Angered.



Friday, 3 July 2009

Tanjung oh Tanjung II

After 27 years, four months and four days

1) I've learnt that
I have so many homosexual friends than I can count, and the number is growing

2) I've learnt that
people who never fail, are those who never achieve anything worth the effort. Because I believe that the things that won't kill me would only make me stronger, therefore I should always find new adventure to test myself thus promote my growth.

3) I've learnt that
to really be happy and proud of someone is to truly understand the emotional, mental, physical journey that they went through to get there

4) I've learnt that
to give is always better than to receive

5) I've learnt that
always begin something with the end is mind

6) I've learnt that
I first need to understand before I can be understood

7) I've learnt that
luck has very little to do with anything, it is within ourselves and the higher power that create things.

8) I've learnt that
I should always uphold the 'win-win' relationship

9) I've learnt that
Human assets are always the most important than other types of assets

10) I've learnt that
I can't really choose who I love, what I can choose is who I want to be, and how I can adapt myself to compliment the person I love

11) I've learnt that
Calling and talking to myself as a second person is not really effective. I've seen this movie called the "Sunshine Cleaning" and the leading lady in an affirmative everyday practises says these words;
You are beautiful
You are talented
You are powerful
You are a winner

And I think that it would be better and more effective if I were to practise those affirmative I should change it to;
I am beautiful
I am talented
I am powerful
I am therefore a winner

12) I've learnt that
And I totally agree with Tanjung when she said, time heals all wounds only if you let it. And I've learnt that after 7 years living in pain only realising it after I actually truly let myself heal - my healed self is truly happy now.

13) I've learnt that
I should always face my fears. Then only will my fears disappear.

14) I've learnt that
I can't rely on one other person to hold and be the only source of my happiness. I control and create happiness around me.

15) I've learnt that
I know my mother is impossible to be understood, but I believe if people were to give her time and patience they would know that she has a wonderful heart. And seriously a brilliant insightful person.

16) I've learnt that
I shall never expect people to reciprocate any good deeds I've perform towards them. I should be open to let others do that, because I did not do those deeds just for that person, I actually perform those deeds 'ikhlas' to the world, thus the world will reciprocate

17) I've learnt that
Sometimes it is easier to forget how to be decently nice to strangers. My not-so-trusting nature have always blinded me to mistrust people. I should always remind myself that when there is an opportunity to be nice and kind to people, I should take it at the first instance, but when that niceness and kindness been asked and taken for granted for the third time, I should say goodbye to that person. Because that person has already asked more than he/she should like the Malay saying "Dah bagi betis nak peha" or my saying " Dah bagi peha nak my fantastic ass".

18) I've learnt that
Nothing is perfect, but I can make it work perfectly for me.

19) I've learnt that
Without the people I've met in my life even those just for a short while, I would not be here; emotionally, mentally, physically, geographically and spiritually. They have helped shape the person I am today.

20) I've learnt that
My pedometer is seriously the best investment I could ever made. I have make full use of it. My Body Fat% has reduce quite substancially.

Tuesday, 30 June 2009

Sometimes kan....

I don't understand why some people are so reluctant to be nice, or the Malay impression "Mulut manis". Seriously!

When I say "...nanti tak boleh lah nak jumpa u selalu"
He say.... "... kalau u nak jumpa I, I pergilah KL nanti..."

Like seriously, that reply makes me feel like 10 cents!! Way to flatter a girl!! Idiot!!

And when I commented on his reply... "kenape i yang nak jumpa memang u tak nak jumpa i ker?" and he said .... "kalau i balik u tak nak jumpa i pulak, nanti penat je drive" Way to be a man.... No wonder you're still single!!!

He should have said... "... don't worry lah sayang, I akan pergi KL selalu nak jumpa u"

Even if that's a load of crap it would at least make me feel definitely thousands of time more than 10 cents!!


No wonder I'm still single... I'm bound to meet these kind of people..... I need to change social circles. But first I need to delete him off my list.